Wednesday, June 24, 2009

well...

So much for decisions.
I've retreated back to confusion. I'm totally undecided about college once again and I doubt I'll major in art like I really want to. I guess right now I'm looking at becoming an English major with an art minor. :/
I guess it's okay.
I mean at least I'll be able to become a teacher if I major in English, and I can always go back to finish my art degree. I can always do what I want after what's best. So...as of right now I've got more than a few college applications to fill out. *insert exhausted sigh here* I haven't even really started this whole college bit and I'm already sick of it. I'm sick and tired of the constant uncertainty. I've got so much to do to even be considered for some of the schools on my list. So much to do that I feel extremely overwhelmed. I feel like I'm never going to catch up.
Now it's time to figure it out.
To figure out where to go from here.
To decide what's best for me.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I've made a decision :D

I'm going to major in studio art.
It may not be the most profitable thing I could go to college for, but it's what I really want. I'm also probably going to major in English. It's quite a bit to take on but English and Art are my two passions and in either field I can pursue a career as a teacher. I'm not scared of the future, worst case senario I can go back for something like buissness or accounting, but right now I need to do what will make me happy. I have to at least try to acheive my dreams. I may fail and my hard work may be in vain, but I have to try to be the best person I can be in my own eyes. I have to feel comfortable with the future I'm creating for myself. I have to do this for myself.

I'm fairly sure I'm going to UALR
It's a small school. I could probably go somewhere more "prestigious" if I wanted, but that's the thing--I don't want to. I want to know my professors. I want to feel comfortable asking for help. I've grown up in a small school, I'm not ready to jump into a classroom of 500 plus students. Maybe when I go to grad school I'll dive into that world, but for now I'm pretty set on the University of Arkansas at Little Rock [go Trojans!].

Another plus, I won't have to beg this school to accept me. My GPA is more than good enough to get in and my ACT score can get me a $10,000 scholarship through the school. With that and the Arkansas Academic Challenge scholarship [$12,000], plus various others I should have no problem covering tuition [even with a double major].

Another Plus...
When I move to Little Rock I won't have to quit dancing. My dance teacher now is good friends with a spectacular dance teacher down there, and can get me into her classes no problem. It may not seem like much to most people, but I love dancing. It has become a vital part of who I am, and I'm so happy that I won't have to quit. :D

So....as for my Sr. Year
I'm looking at a pretty intense year.
I'm extremely excited though. Hopefully,
I'll be able to pass the AP tests I'll be taking
at the end of the year. That would help out with
college a lot. But even if I don't, just taking those classes
will be a big help in preparing me for what lies ahead. For
once I'm actually really looking forward to the future. I can make
it into anything I want it to be. I can create the life I want to live. :D