And in headlines today...

My Jefferybob left for AIT :(

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....

okay so its not in headlines but still...

i miss him 

It's a really strange feeling knowing that

I won't get to see this guy I'm in love with

for eight weeks. Maybe not strange, maybe 

just a little depressing.

So.....

Senior Year.

AP Government/Politics

Spanish II

AP Literature and Composition

Physics

AP Calculus

Health/Teacher's Aid

Studio 2D/Studio 3D

It's exciting I guess.

I'm hoping some plans work out.

It would be really great if they did.

Right now I've got a good feeling they will.

Hopefully, I'm not just getting my hopes up for nothing.

I've got roughly a week to study for my driver's test.  Hopefully, I pass because having a license would be rather splendid. I think if I can make myself read that stupid book I'll be fine. It's just so damn boring. But on the brightside of things, since I'm over sixteen it'll only take thirty days to get my actually license.  No waiting six months bullshit. :D

It's been a while so...

Just thought I'd post a little something. 

My goal to start reading more...didn't work.

My goal to start drawing more...didn't work.

My goal to learn to cook...didn't work. 

:(

But that's okay because I've decided that today is a new start.

I WILL make something out of nothing, and

I will NOT let the little things bring me down anymore.

I have to find my ambition, find my passion, 

find the love I once had for life.

So I'm basically finished with my 

junior year of high school. What have

I accomplished? Little to nothing.

Now, I'm rushing to finish huge

semester projects, and counting down

the days until I have to make some big

decisions. 

So my manly man is leaving for AIT in less than a month. :(  I'm really sad to see him go.  We've been together nearly 10 months now and it's harder to see him leave than it was last year.  He'll be gone about 2 months which means...he won't be here for our one year anniversary.  I guess it seems a little trivial, but it still gets me down when I think about it.  I think I'm going to make a quilt for him while he's gone.  Right now I'm planning on a Log Cabin pattern in greys and blacks with a dark red center piece. Oh and I think I'll actually [my mother is doing the happy dance as she reads this] quilt by hand because it just seems more personal. 

So for my Closing Thought:

I have to make myself a happier person.

No one will do it for me.

Goals need to be recognized and accomplished,

not just made and ignored.

Today is my second chance to make things better.